Dropped it in the mail

Happy New Year everyone!

So today, I mailed in my paperwork to the adoption agency so I can receive a new copy of my non-identifying information. I included a letter for them to place in my file in the event that anyone from my birth family comes seeking it. Pretty passive/aggressive behavior on my part. LOL "I won't look for you, but if you come looking for me..."

I've also begun filling out all the paperwork to submit to IARMIE and the ISRR. I have to get one of the forms for IARMIE notarized before I send it in, but I'll do that this week. Apparently, IARMIE can tell me what hospital I was born in, something I've never known.

I'm both nervous and excited about these steps I'm taking. I don't know what I expect to have happen once I take them. I feel sure that they aren't looking for me, but then I question if that's just something inside of me trying to protect me from disappointment. I'm so confused about what I feel that I don't know what's real and what's not.